Am I Capable

Am I capable of picking a good man
See, I never picked a cheater or a beater.

And they were all believers
But not willing receivers

Did not taking me seriously
And sometimes misleading.

And though I sit and ponder…
Am I capable of picking the right man

That is willing to explore
The possibility of holy matrimony
To include a beautiful ceremony

Not afraid of committing
Trusts me when I say I’m ready for fidelity
longevity and a family.

Understands my complexity
And realizes it is not abnormality
But individuality.

Compassion and Love
Is what I want to share
To show you that I truly care

To be that gift as the scriptures reads:
when a man findeth a wife he findeth a good thing.

But am I Capable of choosing the right man

When I’ve only selected failed relationships
Never happily-ever-after just short of everlasting

Lacking compatibility
Is the justifiable message I use to maintain credibility?
When the truth is I don’t have a clue.

Do I scare them away or perhaps it’s intimidating to stay?
They always come back wanting to replay
But at that point I desire no more
And I humbly ignore
Since to you I no longer belong.

I disconnect and never turn back
I walk away and feel no lack.

And continue to wonder?
Am I capable of choosing my lover?